i wanna try to let go. (Thursday, January 11, 2007 / 10:37 PM)
few days has past, and i've been thinking. i duno if u will read this post or not but i've got something to say. that day was the first day i really gave everything up by walking out of that door. i duno if wad im doing was right, all i noe is that i want this r/s to end clear-cut.
i've been trying hard, trying hard to stand strong. pls let go of all this. pls dun come and tell me that u are saving this whole thing. i can tell u, u're not!! u claimed that u are, but over and over again, u save this r/s by wanting me back but not trying to understand wad has happened. u try to quit because i told u and want u to do so, not because u urself is willing. that explains why u always cant succeed in quitting.
i myself also have a part to blame. always giving u chances even before u really quit. now that u have taken me for granted. now that u are expecting that i will be back. let me tell u this!! i wanna stand strong on my grounds. i wanna let u noe that im nt for granted. i dun wanna enter this whole r/s again. and i noe that u haven't changed a bit.
u once told me that "to succeed in love is not to find the correct person but to learn to love that person you found". however, the prob between us is that u never learn to make me happy. u never learn to do those little things. u assumed that those things are only meant to be done by me, not u. and i have told u before that in a r/s, it is impossible for one person to do everything. both muz come tgt. sometimes i gv,u tke. sometimes u gv, i tke. but what have u learnt other than bringing me back into this r/s and quarrel again? ?
i have tried to make u happy. i have done all i can do. im sorry to have hurt u over and over again. i seriously wan u to think it over, which is best for both of us.
