love my life

(Wednesday, September 26, 2007 / 1:54 AM)

first wan show u guys my additional diving pics.
taken by a nt bad photographer.
http://picasaweb.google.com/cczyan/ProjectAWARELiveaboardRemovalOfCrownOfThorns
ENJOY!

second, someone sent me an email.
No one falls in love by choice, it is by CHANCE.
No one stays in love by chance, it is by WORK.
And no one falls out of love by chance, it is by CHOICE.

and baby, our r/s hangs on by work.
if nobody do nth, then there's definitely no love.
u onli know hw to sae go here go dere.
tt time sae sentosa till now u didnt ask.
i seriously dun wad more sld b done.
lethargic.

third, was quarreling with him again.
felt damn empty.
this whole r/s.
yes empty.

when was the time u made me feel surprised.
when was the time i cried cuz i was too happy.
when was the time when u hug me and sae u love me.

dere's nth memorable in this r/s i can think of.
it's so empty.
so insecure.
fear tt u will go to ktv lounge agn.
fear tt u flirt with gals online agn.
fear tt u will go out with gal and hug them to sleep.

everything u do makes me fear.
this whole r/s makes no point fr us to carry on further.
but why am i still stuck stubbornly.

i know u love me i noe tt u care.
but u dun make me feel loved.
do u understand??
no surprises.
no laughter.
no communication.

so empty.

i wan tok to u, u dun wan answer.
i wan to nice to u, u fierce.
ask me dun bullshit.
den wads the point?

im holding ur hand.
but im feeling nthing.
is this wad im supposed to be feeling?

i duno.

i duno wad i wan also.
i juz dun wan to feel so empty.
like im living a life of my own.
no sweetness, onli bitterness.

this r/s is filled with black and white.

lonely (Wednesday, September 19, 2007 / 4:21 PM)

it's the hols. but im NOT doing anything.
staying hme.
slacking.
and at this time.
baby went overseas.
sian~

he did called to ask me wad i want.
as he knows tt i wan a wallet.
he called and ask wad colour.
then i sae white.
but sad to sae, they dont carry white in tt design.
then i sae red.
but he sae yellow nicer then i was like.
yeah~
i duno why he still ask.
haha..
anyway wadeva he buy i also will like de.
cant possibly ask him go back chg ma.
its been 2 days since he left for HK.
so bored~~
MISSSSSSSSSSS

photos!! (Wednesday, September 12, 2007 / 12:53 AM)

hey people!
if u wana see wad i have seen in tioman,
juz click on the link below!!

http://melvinjames.multiply.com/photos/album/7/LOB_Tioman_Sep_2007-Project_Aware

HAVE FUN! LIKE I DID!

*** anyone interested to join me for an advance diving course?? ***
hahaha...
anyway. it's hard to find someone who shares the same interest as u do.
so yeah..
and im still finding~~~

tioman dive trip (Tuesday, September 11, 2007 / 2:06 AM)

just came back frm my dive trip ystd.
it was a fantastic dive trip.
even w/o my bf gg.
this goes to show tt i really had loads of fun.
i saw a damn huge jellyfish.
the biggest ive ever seen in my life.
and a bumperhead fish.
it is abt 40 cm long?
haha. blue in colour.
shall show u guys the fotos when i received them frm other diving mates. =]

but i missed the sea tutles TWICE!!
damn!
they were just too fast for me.
lolx.
saw many beautiful and different fish.
so much nicer thn wad i saw in pulau aur.
although this time we live on board.
the accommodation was far way better thn the one in aur.
at least we had aircon this time.

our mission for this dive trip is to remove the CROWN OF THORNS.
aft knowing the name.
u guys sld noe tt this creature has thorns.
and their thorns is venomous.
one sting and u will miss the remaining dives.
why sld we remove them?
its all cuz they eat up corals.
destroying them.
thus, damaging the beautiful underwater world.

taken from the webby

diving will nv stop for me.
even tho mum doesnt really like me going to dive trips.
but it's smthing tt mkes me happy.
real happy.

it wld b better if i had cameras and housing tt would allow me to tke pics underwater.
and a personal wetsuit and mask wld be good.
lolx!
wrking towards fulfilling my wish.

hope to go to maldives and more other dive sites. wink wink.

to view my fotos click on the link above.

easier said.. (Friday, September 7, 2007 / 12:58 AM)

if it's easy to find a new one then find me one.
nt tt im sick of the old one.
juz tt all has rusted.
all = everything.
rusted = rot.
ntg seems to go right when there's u n me.
happiness is when i get ur kiss.
sadness is when i ask for u to sae i love u when u look into my eyes.

ntg is easy in this world.
everything is easier said thn done.
i wan a bf who's tall, fit, tan, rich, handsome.
yeah.
easier said.

i wan to grow taller, be a size 6, have beau-ti-ful eyes, hour glass figure.
yeah.
easier said.

i hope there's no sadness at all in this world.
yeah.
easier said.

wad happens when everything can be done juz by saying.
wad happens when u look beside u and im nt there anymore.
wad happens when i realise i regretted.

nobody knows.
and when u sae u love me.
it's all easier said.
never will u express.

and im living alone`