had a nice chat with an old friend and realised many things. i can't say much because im afraid i will say everything. so yeah. know something i don't used to know. realised things i didnt used to see.
all i can say is that you can never find anyone who loves you and who can forgive you as much as i do. tho people keep saying you can find a better one. it doesn't usually happens.
many people can say that they love him, they love her. but the greatest love one can give is after they lose it heavily. anyone can find a gf easily, love them easily. but seriously, who can last till the end?
the ones who can last is those who overcome obstacles over obstacles. crossed mountains of mountains. and those who ran miles and miles.
i know that chances are not always there. that is why nobody wanna lose it. they grab it whenever they have a chance beore it slipped by.
seriously speaking, i dont know if you still loves me. i dont know if you still wants this. you seemed to have given all up. disappointed in everything.
someone told me you need time, you fear. you want to see the sincere. you want to get the greatest assurance. you want me to change for the better.
i know i know and i know. so here i am. trying to accept all flaws found in you or maybe all things which i can't accept in the past. betting, smoking, gambling, drinking. hot-tempered, no patience, take things slow, don't plan.
you need time, i need time. but whatever the outcome is, we both know that we once had each other. we both gave our best. we both tried hard. we both overcomed many obstacles.
i really dont want to lose you forever.
There is NOTHING. (Thursday, June 26, 2008 / 8:30 PM)
im sorry that my posts still sounds sad and all. that is because i am not happy. yeah. and just to let everyone know. please dont ask what has happened about any post. im not saying because there AREN'T anything to say.
when i say NOTHING, just nod your pretty head and STOP asking. before you PISS ME OFF.
when i wana say, i will say it out loud. and to everyone. but when im not saying, IM NOT!
i know you guys care. but please. spare me. not at this moment. i seriously have nothing to say about all my posts.
if you don't want me to shout at you, please stop bombarding me with questions. THANKS.
Mother And Daughter Banned From Disneyland! (Wednesday, June 25, 2008 / 2:11 PM)
And those are REAL!! what the fuck.
it's all i wana say. (Tuesday, June 24, 2008 / 9:41 PM)
有多少爱能重来? 多少人愿意等待? 失去之後才明白
走进回忆的安排 一幕一幕的对白 上演我们的未来
期待 原来是一种伤害 深爱的人一离开 是我不敢 忽略你给我的爱
现在我只想 回到最初的时候 不愿让你再泪流 寂寞之後 只有你会陪着我
现在我只想 回到最初的时候 我知道你还爱着我 亲爱的你 请你握紧我的手
请你看看我 请看需要你的我 一切重头
请你看看我 真的需要你的我 只要你回头
On Mogu's Birthday!!! ( / 2:18 PM)
we are not the same. ( / 1:55 PM)
maybe we really should stop here. at this point, this dot. i duno why im so silly. silly to love u all over agn. while u dun even give a damn.
u looked so happy in the car with her. but not with me. u can tok to her for long but not even one sentence with me. am i a bad bad person to tok to?
u fetched her, smiled at her, send her home, missed her, had happy times with her.
then who am i?
很想說 (Monday, June 23, 2008 / 10:49 AM)
難道 笑容沒了 距離有了 快樂也走了 還是 真心死了 彼此不信任了 終於懂了 真的
很想說有妳是幸福的 很想說我的心是妳的 很想說妳真的誤解了 很想說妳真的忘記了 MY LOVE
很想說會好好疼妳的 很想說愛妳是自由的 很想說妳是否聽見了 很想說妳真的忘記了
愛了 就有堅持理由 別說 我會留在路口 不會走 愛妳會直到最後
很想說會好好疼妳的 很想說愛妳是自由的 很想說妳是否聽見了 很想說我們可不可以
復合
Kungfu Panda. (Wednesday, June 18, 2008 / 11:57 AM)
Master Wu Gui said in the "Kungfu Panda" show
The past is history, the future is a mystery, what you have now is a gift... that's why it's call present...
ain't this nice?
Make Sense? It somehow does. =D (Tuesday, June 17, 2008 / 9:33 AM)
TO ALL THE WOMEN OUT THERE, have a NICE day! (and MEN of course>..)
Believe it or not. Woman has Man in it; Mrs. has Mr . in it; Female has Male in it; She has He in it; Madam has Adam in it; No wonder men always want to be inside women!
Men were born between the legs of a woman, yet men spend all their life and time trying to go back between the legs of a woman....
Why? BECAUSE THERE IS NO PLACE LIKE HOME ?
Okay, Okay, it all makes sense now... I never looked at it this way before:
Ever notice how all of women's problems start with MEN?
MENtal illness MENstrual cramps MENtal breakdown MENopause AND .. When we have REAL trouble, it's a
back then and now. (Monday, June 16, 2008 / 5:27 PM)
this will be the last post for the day.
i was too free at work, so i went to see my previous posts. all the way from 2007. saw pictures of past memories being uploaded. so miss the moments. and now it's all different.
i used to be so happy and so sad. i used to complain all day. but now. im neither happy nor am i sad. and i dont complain at all. seriously, what do people want in life?
i am very fickle-minded. i can't make decisions. usually i will just choose any choice and in the end...
and now, there turns out to be 2 things i regret in life. one, leave softball. two, leave you. i just miss you so.
there's nothing more i can say, can i? i understand how you feel back then. it's like we just broke off ystd.
lovesss.
Promises = ? ( / 9:15 AM)
Promises are lies. especially when promises are made by you.
so in short, YOU are a LIAR!!
and im just that little kiddo over there. listening to all your stupid lies and thinking. and im growing up! not that little stupid kiddo anymore!
When i want sweets, i'll look for him. When i want bedtime stories, i'll look for her. When i want to go to the playground, i'll look for them.
You will NEVER be on my list ANYMORE!
My next one will be a BETTER MAN...
A 100 times BETTER.
Just watch it, you LIAR-HOLE!
i'm buying the "sex and the city" book! (Thursday, June 12, 2008 / 8:42 AM)
sex and the city last night ROCCCKKKSSSS!!! i would pay a 10 for that show. it's funny , it's sad. it's wadeva you can think of.
I LOOOOVVVVEEEE IIITTTT!!!!
lucky i went for the movie ystd. i ain't stupid after all. =D
To You: somtimes, you just have to put in that little effort. you can't expect to take ALL the time. you've got to give a litte. by doing things like you don't care, ain't gonna help. because people may think that you are not interested. then slowly, they will not do as much things as they used to. and sometimes it isn't about others. it's just about you and your faults. it depends on whether you are willing to take the extra step to realise what you are wrong at. and just let me tell you a little something. i'm afraid i can hold any longer. give me a hand if you are willing to create a new one.
sex and the city (Tuesday, June 10, 2008 / 2:23 PM)
im finally watching the "sex and the city" movie today!! cant wait for work to end so i can watch the movie and enjoy and relax.
went for cardio class just now. it was much more tiring than last 2 week's class. i perspired even more today and i felt the heat even though im in an air con room.
i guess you know how hot im feeling already, huh.
i wana watch kungfu panda as many says it is damn nice and hilarious. but damn u. if u dun wana watch with me pls sae it early so i can find someone else ok. dun promise and drag and say the show has finished. if tt happens, i will fuck u inside out and upside down and chop u into 5,000 pieces. DAMN!
i have already missed over her dead body and what happens in vegas. guess i'll have to ask somebody to get the disc for me or SOMETHING. some things are best not to be said in public. *WINKS*
back to work, qirui!
PISSED! (Sunday, June 8, 2008 / 7:00 PM)
what else can i do? can anyone tell me? im feeling so desparate for help.
movies? NO. Out to walk? NO. Anything also no. i really feel like going for movies going out to everywhere alone!
all i can is to ... ( / 12:51 AM)
i realise i'm not the first in place. not anymore. maybe i'm just someone around in that corner of your heart. someone you call to when you need. someone you thought of when you are bored.
definitely not someone you will miss and love, anymore.
i dont know why i still care so much. i dont know why i still think about this. i dont know why im affected by whatever you do. i dont know if i still ....
it's not your fault to place your friends way above. not your fault to not miss me. not your fault to not answer or reply any of my calls or msg.
it's me. and i'm believing it.
i stayed up and wait. just for a call. i dont used to do this. and i dont know why now im doing this. maybe i deserve it.
overseas, would you? (Saturday, June 7, 2008 / 11:09 PM)
i seriously can't wait for my holidays to come. so that i can go overseas. i still wana go to malaysia. still wana go to bangkok. still wana go diving.
so many places to go. yet i dont have the time. I JUST CANT WAIT FOR THE HOLS!
wld u go with me?
love flaming.. ( / 3:11 AM)
i had the feeling inside me. but i just dont know what it is. i want to release. very much want to. but i dont know wad it was. then hw can i remove it?
then i realise it was tears. long hidden tears. tears which i swallowed back weeks ago. and i finally break down. feeling so comfortable and relieved. i have found the love.
so alone at hme.. (Thursday, June 5, 2008 / 8:27 PM)
mum and dad and sis just went out for dinner. and im all alone at hme. why?
cause i didnt wana go out for dinner with them cuz im kinda tired. after sweeping the floor, i mopped it. after mopping i wash the floor outside.
so why am i doing all these? hmmmm. my maid went back for THREE WEEKS!! THREE LONG WEEKS!! argh!! it's the first day and i'm going to die.
even my dog wana steal my food. see hw poor thing we are? i hope this 3 weeks pass as fast as possible. then she will be back, then there will be no more cleaning for me. and i have to wash clothes on satrday too. that is very bad.
i have never washed clothes in my life using the washing machine. and please do not ask me to use my hands. tho i will. just to protect some clothes. argh!! im dying.
=((((((((((
if only i have a part time maid. if only my mother doesn't have to work. if only my sister will be LESS self-centered and HELP sweep and mop the floor instead of ONLY WASHING HER CLOTHES!!!
IM TIRED!!
love (Monday, June 2, 2008 / 5:56 PM)
Read Jasss's blog. saw the post about love. LOVE the phrase "Find a heart that loves you at your worst and arms that will hold you at your weakest"
Thus, i should go around with my specs, w/o make up, shirt inside out, messy hair and lastly, i should fall every five step.
hahaha. Nah. that's so dumb.
but i just love that sentence. =D
and also another one. "never give up on someone you can't go a day without thinking about." Though i haven met this someone, but i am sure that one day, HE will come. Maybe he's already somewhere by my side.
