i think. it's impossible. for you. to find. a decent. girlfriend like. me anymore.
i don't smoke. don't tattoo. ain't vulgar. hate beer. hate smoke. avoid drugs. and i speaks english. classy english. not like others out there. im just different.
HAHAHA..
The 5 things i see. (Sunday, July 20, 2008 / 7:51 PM)
I like guys who are
1) Cute 2) 170 cm and above 3) Tanned 4) Not thin and not fat 5) Playful but faithful
I lke guys who with
1) Big glittering eyes 2) Bunny teeth 3) Dimples 4) Sharp nose 4) Short tongue
I like guys who have
1) Their romantic side 2) Many surprise ideas 3) Respect for families, me and my friends 4) Their charming side 5) "Kou shi xin fei" attitude
1) Scare away pigeons and rats for me 2) Drink, Mahjong and dive with me 3) Click with my friends 4) Make me happy when im sad, be happy with me when im happy 5) Joke and crap with me
And He Is Appearing Soon. (^_^)
Mahjong till Midnight. ( / 4:50 PM)
Mahjong last night with the sec school softballers. Jane, Qi Ling and Mich. And of course, Qi Ling's bf.
So... Bf was the biggest winner. Maybe Qi Ling brought him GOD DAMN GOOD LUCK. HAHA.
My luck ain't that good but i managed to not lose. Ya-Hoo-Wee!
We had much funnnnn... Gather some time again ok girls!!
1st August.. Can't wait for that day to come. As it is the END of waking up early at 7am. And END of staying in the office for the long 9 hours!! YEAH!!
However, i can't bear to leave my colleagues after being together for months. It's like my second home. It's the people i will miss. The great environment of the office i will miss. The long walk to the toilet just to see "Xiao Bai Tu" i will miss. The never-ending tidbits in office i will miss. The forever-there drinks i will miss.
How can i leave such a comfortable surrounding? HAIZ. I have counted already. It's ten more days to end of work. No more computer all day. No more sitting down all day. More freedom already.
But what am i going to do during my freaking 2 MONTHS holidays? I have got no bf to hang on to. No more "Xiao Bai Tu" to crush on. No more friends to run to because of their attachment. No more holidays cause i don't have people!!
ARGH!!!!! I wana plan for diving. Wana go overseas. Have planned all these already. But as i said. No more bf. What to do? Find new companion. HAHA!!
Who can i ask? For diving and holidays.
Nvm, i believe i can find someone, something to do! =DD Be positive. Always positive.
As you said you know i can. I'm telling you now that "YES, I CAN!"
To Jasss, re: tagboard (Wednesday, July 16, 2008 / 11:32 AM)
Hey Jasss. I didn't take his picture la. Where dare can. I always look out for him in the office only. DAMN CUTEEEEE!!!!!!
But when i go onto my company's website to search for him. I tell you how s*ck co*k he looks. He's not cute and not handsome. I can't show it to you here. But when there is a chance, i will show it to you personally. Think that photo on the web is like 10 years ago. Where he looked like 30 years old then. Now he looks like 25 MAX!
HAHAHAHA!! OK la! At least i think he's cute. And my colleagues said he's cute too. So yeah. Trust me for this goddamn time. WILL YOU!! HAHAHAHA..
Anyway, he's cute.
Yesterday after the starbucks. I saw him leaving the building then me and my colleagues STALKED him. HAHAHA. We literally ran and followed him into the MRT. Sad to say, he took a different line as me. My colleagues took the same line as him can!!!!! What the hell. Then i pretended to stand at my colleague side and talk to them. HAHAHA!!
WE WERE DAMN FUNNY THEN. =DD And i know where he sits in the office. HEHE.
For my girls. ( / 11:27 AM)
Girls:
I cannot stress this enough: IF YOU AREN'T BEING TREATED RIGHT BY A GUY, DON'T WAIT FOR HIM TO CHANGE. DITCH HIS SORRY DISGRACE-TO-THE-MALE-POPULATION ASS, AND FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL TREAT YOU WITH UTTER RESPECT
Someone who will honor your morals. Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest. Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes. Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel. Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes. and say 'i love you'..
AND ACTUALLY MEAN IT!
From an email. From a guy's point of view.
To Jasss, Na and myself.
The Four Letter Word (Tuesday, July 15, 2008 / 9:25 PM)
Sometimes fate just can't stop meddling.
Once, we bumped into each other at clarke quay. The place was so big. Just nice, i went the wrong way to the toilet. And just then, you came up from the escalator. That was the first great fate i will never forget.
Then there was once, while waiting for you. I counted to ten and made a wish. And you appeared from my back. It was another fate i had remembered till today.
Another time, we were on the bus. You were playing football game on my handphone. You didn't get to score. Then i said that if you were to score the next goal, we would be forever. And there. It was continuous goal.
And till today, 15 July 2008, we bumped into each other. In a small corner, at a BIG shopping mall. Wouldn't you say it's fate? Or maybe, coincidence.
Today something in my mind kept telling myself to look pretty for the day. But i didn't. Cause i didn't know what was coming. Then i had diarrhoe. But i still went to work. I have no reason why. Actually i was supposed to leave work at 6pm. But my colleague wanted bagel at starbucks. So, i joined them and left at 6.30pm.
I actually forgot that i had to go to dhoby, so i didn't take the green line. And i missed the purple line's train. So i waited for another one and went to dhoby. Chit-chatted for a while. Could have left earlier, but didn't. I don't know why.
I wanted to take the lift, but i didn't. My legs just wants the escalator. And the sushi crowd was luring me into their way. And down the escalator.
I saw you. I saw your smile, your face. And i gave in to fate.
PS: If i were to woo you back all over again, would you give me another chance, believe in me and say yes i do?
FATE
Weekends (Monday, July 14, 2008 / 8:35 AM)
Friday night:
met up with friends for pubbing. decided to land the butts on daybed bar (Martini Firm now). However, it was under renovation!!! there goes my long waiting desire of stepping into Martini Firm. DAMN!
So, obviously, we had to choose other place. we went to Eski Bar at Boat Quay. It wasn't that nice. As in it wasn't cosy at all. Sofas wasn't comfortable. didn't like. So we left and continued searching for another pub. This was the third one.
We settled down in RAV club. We got in at about 11pm. And it was almost empty!! Like only two tables of customers. We were told that customers come in only after 3 am. So well, we had the place to ourselves at about 12 or 1 am?
HAHA. wasn't much fun tho.
Saturday:
Slept till 4 plus cuz i slept at around 3 the day before. WOW!! what a pig i am. And i can sleep straight 15 hours. Dare Me!
HAHA. Went for dinner at bukit timah with families. Not bad tho, but waited too long for the food. And my dad bought Char Kway Teow in to eat. Like what the? nvm... as long as he's happy!! anyway my mum have got nothing to say about her husband. =D
Sunday:
Woke up, had breakfast and went over to my friend's place for movie. did chat a bit. and was being preached by a naggy old man. Thanks old man! haha. at least something got into my head this time. I think you can stop studying now. Be a preacher. HAHA. You've got talent!!
hmmm. anyway thanks for making me talk things out. i have learnt something too. from there, i can preach to others about my experience. thanks boy.
imu (Sunday, July 13, 2008 / 9:57 PM)
and im waiting.. for the day.. where you would believe in me.. again.
Lovess (Monday, July 7, 2008 / 7:50 PM)
Thanks Jas. It's only when you've been through then you will understand and bring others out of their sadness.
And i owe it to you, my friend.
From my brother, To me. (Thursday, July 3, 2008 / 11:59 AM)
I Stay In Love Baby, I stay in love with you
Dying inside cause I can't stand it Make up break up can't take this madness We don't even really know why all I know is baby I Try and try so hard to keep our love alive If you dont' know me at this point then I highly doubt you ever will I really need you to give me that unconditional love I used to feel It's a mistake if we just erase it From our hearts and minds I know
We said let it go but I kept on hangin' on Inside I know it's over you're really gone It's killing me cause there ain't nothing that I can do Baby I stay in love with you And I keep on telling myself that you'll come back around And I try to front like 'Oh well' each time you let me down See I can't get over you now, no matter what I do Baby baby, I stay in love with you
It cuts so deep it hurts down to my soul My friends tell me I ain't the same no more We still need each other When we stumble and fall how we gon' act like what we had Ain't nothing at all now Hey, what I wanna do is ride shotgun next to you With the top down like we used to Hit the block proud in the SU We both know our heart is breakin' Can we learn from our mistakes I can't last one moment alone, although I know
We said let go but I kept on hangin' on Inside I know it's over you're really gone It's killing me cause there ain't nothing that I can do Baby baby, I stay in love with you And I keep on telling myself that you'll come back around And I try to front like "Oh well" each time you let me down See I can't get over you now no matter what I do Baby baby, I stay in love with you
We said let go but I kept on hangin' on Inside I know it's over you're really gone It's killing me cause there ain't nothing that I can do Baby baby, I stay in love with you And I keep on telling myself that you'll come back around And I try to front like "Oh well" each time you let me down See I can't get over you now no matter what I do Baby baby, I stay in love with you
i dont want you to follow my foot step (Wednesday, July 2, 2008 / 8:33 AM)
last time i used to take you for granted. knew you would come back to me no matter what. i was mean, harsh and bad bad bad.
then now you wouldn't come back. i realised i lost someone. someone i could live till my hair turns white. someone whom i could rely on till forever. someone i couldn't live without.
i felt irritated that time when u asked me back. like how u are feeling now. i understand. but im still doing everything i can. because i want you back. like how u want me back in the past.
then we dragged for abt 2 months. and we got together somehow. we plannned to go on a trip tgt. planned to spend time tgt. we go out quite often. slept over at ur place almost every week.
however, something in me went wrong and i let go again. i dont know what has happenede to me. i know i still love you. just that it's not strong.
and now, i know that you still DO love me. just that you wish to know someone new. by searching online or whatever. but you know what? it never will work, never will there be an outcome. trust me. i was like you now the other time.
now we switched roles and all. sad to say, you still need time. but im telling you this. please dont make the wrong decision and regret. dont be like me.
what i have learnt is. never give up on someone. if you still have that tweeny bit of feelings hanging. you will never want to give up on tt bit of feelings you have got. else you will regret some day.
remedies/cures. (Tuesday, July 1, 2008 / 4:05 PM)
replying to you indirectly. because i cant be too direct now. as in cant tell u straight to face.
ok. here is the cure. u cant sleep cuz u think. u think because you care. i too cant sleep at night for abt half an hour. cuz i think.
and yeah. since you care. why dont you just give it another chance. believe it the last time. you dont expect. maybe believe in the thing you are thinking for a few months. give that thing a try maybe for a month. and see the difference. and decide. then you will have good sleep.
i want you to be happy, to be healthy.
this is only what i'm thinking that cld b possible for your "i cant sleep"
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i love you more than i know. i miss you more than anything. i had a great fall. and it's only ONE chance i need... i promise and i mean it. i will prove to you. i will...
